I watched the mini docu-series about Bill Gates on Netflix a few weeks ago. A familiar feeling of restlessness came over me. Do any of you get that feeling? It happens to me when I see or read or hear about someone doing amazing, massive things to change the world into a better place.
Here is the richest man in the world, who could just live out his life in pure luxury. And yet, he and Melinda continue to work to improve the lives of millions of people all over the world. He doesn’t just pick any simple problem to solve. Oh no, he goes for the really big ones. Polio eradication, alternate source of energy using nuclear power to affect climate change and installing state of the art toilets in Africa in an attempt to decrease deaths of children from diarrheal diseases due to poor sanitation.
Melinda has also been a champion for women and children in these countries. Yes sure, they have access to resources that we could only dream of and their net worth is probably more than the GDP of a small country. But it is their intention that is so admirable.
Their story is truly inspiring. But for me, it makes me feel inadequate. I did “pay my dues” so to speak, by helping hundreds of sick people as a physician over many years. And I am truly grateful that I had the opportunity to do so. But now that I am on the cusp of transition, I can’t help but wonder, what’s next?
I am still quite active and vibrant and feel like I have much to offer the world. I am passionate about spreading the message about how a clean diet can stave off and even reverse chronic illnesses. In that vein, my husband and I have conducted some cooking classes and really enjoyed teaching people about healthy recipes. I have also done two interviews for a local TV station and posted them on YouTube. I am also involved with groups hosting vegan potlucks every month.
The really fun part about these projects is that they came about organically. I was not striving hard or pushing to make things happen, unlike the first part of my life. So there is a nice gentle rhythm to it. As I have said before, I feel guided rather than forced.
So this new yearning I have to make a huge difference in the world also has a gentleness to it. It feels more mellow. It feels like I am putting out feelers to the Universe, testing the waters. Waiting for a signal, an opening in the path that shows me which way I should take next.
From a practical perspective, I acknowledge that the energy has changed due to being financially stable. The low key buzz of anxiety that I used to have around money has subsided to a large extent. I now understand more than ever, how complex our feelings about financial security can be.
Money may not buy anyone happiness, but it can buy one a feeling of security. And it can buy one the ability to carry out philanthropic projects. But more importantly, it frees one up to truly live life to the fullest.